Don't get me wrong...I dislike murderers.

I really do. I don't take too kindly to men or women (or children for that matter) who take other people's lives. I might be amenable to suicide in the right instances, but not murder (unless it's to save oneself from being murdered, then maybe, but not in war--that's just wrong!).

My point is...I really am NOT trying to discount what anybody does. But in the past 6 months I've gone through some stuff (best left like that--unsaid!) that makes me believe that sometimes, on rare occasions, one is not responsible for what one does. Okay, okay, I'm NOT trying to let anybody off the hook here. Really, I'm not.

But when professional wrestler Chris Benoit killed his wife and son over a couple day period, then committed suicide…you have to admit it was too weird. How could anyone stand to stay in the house? The smell? The knowledge? The depravity? UNLESS, it was the roid-rage? Okay, maybe you don’t believe it…but I do. I had to take steroids for a bad sinus infection. The first time, well, I knew they might make me “a little crazy” or so my doctor said. The second time, I noticed they made me a LOT crazy.

I had these unbelievable thoughts—first, there was the instance with the train. I was getting close to the tracks. The guard rail was coming down, I floored the gas. NEVER have I done something so crazy before—plus I didn’t even seem to care. It didn’t faze me…I didn’t worry about it. It was SO unlike me.

Next was the incident with my eye. Hmm, I thought, my eye hurts (a sign of my sinus infection)….hmm, I thought, maybe I should just RIP it out! And this thought kept occurring day in day out. Thankfully, I stopped the roids before I ripped out the eye. I say thankfully because it was someone else’s eye—JUST kidding, it was my eye. And this did happen. So, I understand roid-rage. It’s real. It happens. Sh*t happens. So maybe, maybe there is something to this whole bit about forgiving those who sinned against you (this from a NONRELGIOUS person!).